I love my life!!!!!! I am so grateful for the abundance in this world, for the love that I bask in every day, for the joy of my children, and for the touch of my husband!

Life is like a rose...

Gaylen comes home today. I've missed him terribly. Life is so complete with him...even the little things, cooking is a blast, cleaning up with the kids, etc. I'm yet to find the joy in paying the bills together...I'll find it someday, I'm sure.
I am so grateful for our home, the shelter and warmth it gives to our family...oh and the space! Having 10 people in 2000 square feet was hard! 6500 square feet gives breathing space and privacy! I am so grateful for our beautiful room. It's more than I could have ever hoped for...more like a suite and nicer than any 5star hotel I've ever stayed in. The stone floors, views of the green space, steam showers, massive bath is unbeleivable! I am grateful to be so blessed!This was not a home I would normally have chosen. It works for our situation. The big appeal was the security, cameras, and electronic gate. It gives me a sense of security from the sick stalker who seems to follow our every move.
I love the 1/2 acre wooded lot that backs up to the greenspace. I love the privacy! It's going to be a great party house for our friends and family! The yard will be great for wedding receptions too. We are starting our garden in a few weeks...healthier foods, save money on produce and just be a little more self sufficiant!
You know, life is good! Thank you God for everything!

Deepak is on Dateline tonight with some other panelist talking about whether or not Satan is real...interesting topic.
There are times when I'd like to place that label on a person..."She's possessed by the devil", when in reality she may be surrounded by darkness, madness, mental illness, poor judgement, living in lies, self pity, loneliness, negativity, poor choices and what ever else afflicts her. Are all these things lumped into the Category of Satan? The truth is that they have been since the beginning of time. We had no way of explaining this unless it was the "Devil". As we learn and grow we find more about the human mind, the human experience, we peel back the layers and we see it is so much more complex that a person named "Satan".
We as humans want to take things so literally sometimes. God created all things both spiritually and temporally. We must remember we are spiritual beings having a human experience, not the other way around.
There is the figurative and the literal. There is light and there is darkness, there is positive and there is negative. There is good and there is evil. There is opposition in all things until we return to love, return to the tree of life, the pure love of God. So many ways to say it...Nirvana, Heaven, etc.
It's my prayer today that I might live by the fruit of the tree of life.

Marjorca...such a romantic island off the coast of Spain. I'd love to rent this villa and spend some time just reconnecting with my huband and family.

You have to dream it first! Then see it in your mind...and then feel it with every fiber of your being. And wa la...it manifests in your life.

It's all about what we focus on... it's our choice.

I choose success, I choose love, I choose service.

It's a wonderful life.

It's misty outside, the clouds can't decide between rain and snow. That's a little like I feel inside, the storm has fizzled yet there remains a little sadness. My heart wants to make things work out for everyone. My heart wants to see the good in all. I realize that it is a persons pain body that makes them act in negative ways. I know that the persons spirit is pure and good and a child of God. I just wish I knew how to help them. There are so many in pain. So much negative thought. If this world is to transform we must lift ourselves and others up out of the sludge of this life.
What can I do today to make a difference? I know it starts inside me...the change that is. I know God loves us...each and everyone of us. I will strive to see the good, see the truth, and live by the spirit today.
Beyond the mist and clouds there is blue sky. Beyond the heaviness of my heart there is peace and love...

Ok, I'm done being mad. The crazy woman can go rott in her own hell. I'll be happy and positive again tomorrow. The best revenge...massive success!

Can't stop looking in the mirror, huh?

You're looking in the mirror Gollum...this is what greed and hate do to a person! Stop stalking us!

I find it so sad that there are such miserable, hatefilled people out there. How do folks let thier hearts become so hard?

It's time to start writing. Time to let go of the fears. Time to move into the world God has prepared for me. It's time to serve...

time to love...

time to speak the truth...